Let there be peace on earth, and let it begin in me.

I was reading a meditation the other day and it really blessed me.
“In order for peace to be possible in the world, peace must be possible first within me”.

I chose to think about that for a couple days. Am I at peace with my family, my friends, and myself? I realized that when I got the cancer call that it was a wake up call. Mortality if you would. I found that I spent a great deal of my time not really thinking about transition. When I speak of cancer today I speak of the fact that it has been the best 2 years of my life. Why? It has helped me to stay current, up to date on my affairs. I have realized that cancer was the diagnosis, the reality was I was allowing my life to eat me alive with conflict or (dis-ease).

I am so thankful today that I had the opportunity to look at what is important. Loving myself, which in turn ripples out to the world. It is my goal in life to be an expression of Love. I think Peace works much the same way. While getting my affairs in order I realized I had to clear a path, and clean up the past. Forgiveness is such a beautiful gift to give. It is one of those one size fits all type of gifts. I had felt that gentle tug at my heart for sometime to let it go. I kept waiting for someone else to make the first move. All the while it was moving in my body. Eating away at my life.

I choose peace and love today. I know that in order for it to be present out side of me that it has to be present within me. After reading the meditation I mentioned earlier it started me thinking about the war in Iraq. I begin to think, what can I do to shift the war? Peace. That is when the song came to me. Let there be peace on earth, and let it begin in me.


I love you
Allen

Where do I spend my time?

Good Morning Family;

I have had the pleasure of watching God in action for some time now. This last month has been one of those times. I had given my health care situation over to God during one of exercises on allowing God to do God’s work while I did mine. I had the opportunity this last week to really allow that to be.

I had received notice that I owed $3000.00 for last years medical insurance. I had heard all kinds of stories, from so many people. Each time I would just look to God and say this is your business, I am going to watch you work. I asked some questions of the people who had sent me this information and I received an answer yesterday. All I owe is a third of the money. All the past errors of folks handling this will be washed away and I would be current and up to date. That is a true thanks giving in my book.

I really want to talk about where I have been living. I received an email from my friend Major Deb today talking about her new address. (Thank you Deb) Each day I wake up I get to choose where I am going to live today. What I am going to say to folks who cross my path. I get to choose weather I am going to do my work, or try and do God’s. By that I mean do I choose to be the LOVE of God, or am I trying to be God? I have noticed over time that I liked to fix things. In doing that I wasn’t allowing God to show up in my life or the lives of others because I was playing God.

I know today that I am responsible for my happiness, and loving others where they are. The rest is up to God. I can hold your hand, I can listen, but the best witness I can be is to be happy. I have the honor of people asking me about my journey since choosing to be happy. This is really new. I have been in recover for over 19 years and one of the things they suggest is that you look for someone who has what you want and ask them how they got there.

I want you to understand that I am growth in progress; I know today that life shows up. When it does I get to choose. There are times when I live in an old pattern of behavior, and I find myself hurting, or at DIS EASE. When I listen to that quiet voice within, I know I can move to a new address anytime I choose. It really is up to me. Today I know the rest is up to God.

Thank you for being the face of God I get to see each day.
I love you
Allen

A Giift to Myself

Good Morning Family;

I have started some morning practices that I want to share with you. Each morning when I first wake up I say Good Morning God, and welcome to my day. I then find my way out of bed to my office,where I spend time reading the daily devotional from my church in Oakland.I then take time to write in my gratitude journal something I am grateful for. Then I quiet my mind and meditate allowing God to speak to me. I have found that often I would pray to God,then busy myself with my day's activities, and wonder why I didn't get a response? After my meditation I receive a phone call from my prayer partner who says a prayer for me, and I say one for her. It reminds me that I am surrounded by love, and connected to everyone and everything. ALWAYS!!!!

After this I go down and start my daily walk to build my strength, and today it hit me. This is the gift I give myself each day. When I lived in CA I would wake up each morning and 4:30 AM and go to the gym. I would say to everyone I knew I want to start the day with me, and if something falls off at the end of the day it will be something other than myself. I realize today I had a hint of my awareness that I have today. I cannot share anything that I don't have. I cannot give peace, if I don't have it with in me. I cannot give Love if I don't have it with in me.

I was walking this morning and I realized this is a gift I am giving myself each day. I am choosing to LOVE me. I then realized that my body is a vessel and I get to choose what it holds. So many times in my life I have chosen to hold pain, anger, fear the list can go on. Today I know that I can choose at any time what I focus on, and in doing that I am attracting more of the same. It sounds so very simple, yet it took me 45 years to learn this easy lesson.

I began to think, in each moment if I were treating my loves ones the way I am treating myself right now would they feel loved? Would they want to be in my presence? Would they want a relationship with me? I am so full of gratitude today, for I know at this moment that no matter what live shows me I have the choice in what I see. I have the choice in what I say, do, and think.

Leaning to love myself is allowing me to love another.

I love you
Allen

Forgiveness

Forgiveness.

I was reading my daily devotional today, which was about forgiveness. It stated that 94% of Americans identify forgiveness as one of their central values. Yet only 48% say they have ever had a forgiving experience. That started me thinking.

Over this past year dealing with the cancers in my life, I really ask myself what is eating me? I can make this about cancer or I can look at where in my life I allow things to eat at me. What injustice was I holding onto so much that I was unwilling to let go of it? I took the time to look at my life and see those relationship that had energy around them and ask myself is this worth holding onto, or am I willing to let this go? I begin to see a pattern in my life of holding on to past hurts and taking it so personally. One of the many books I have been lead to read this year states "don't take it personally" it's not about me. So often I would take on the energy of some one else's stuff. How is that serving me? I realized that I was allowing it to eat me alive. I will state again that this is my personal journey.

Having discovered my pattern I begin a forgiveness campaign. This was for me, and about me. I wanted my life to be clean and clear of resentments, hurt, pain, and even hate. I know today that there is a season for all emotions, I found myself choosing to stand in one place with some of the things in my life. Forgiveness allowed me to move on. One of my favorite saying is "with one foot in the past, and one in the future I am totally missing the PRESENT."

I also discovered it was all about fear. Fear of being hurt, taking advantage of, you fill in the blank. I no longer wanted to live my life in fear, or hatred. The choice for me was forgiveness. I began to call folks, email folks, talk with folks and tell them I didn't care what had taken place in our lives that was unimportant. I wanted them to know that I love them and that was all that mattered to me today. I felt my heart begin to breathe, and love could once again flow freely. When I talk with people about this last year with cancer, I tell everyone it has been the best year of my life. I mean that. The relationships with my family,and friends are rich and current. I didn't want to wake up, or for that matter get to heaven and say, I wish I had done this or that. I wish I had told who ever that I loved them.

Forgiveness allowed my heart the freedom to love again. My purpose in life is to LOVE. I can't do that if I am tied to the past or the future. The greatest gift I have given myself is to be happy, and forgiveness.

This time of year causes many of us to think about what is the perfect gift for who ever. Perhaps forgiveness is the answer, one size fits all, and it is always the perfect fit.

I Love You
Allen

I am the Light

Good Morning Family

My Dominate Intent today is to LOVE.

I have been sending emails, letters, and cards over this past year talking about choice. Each day that I am given, I have a choice what I do with it. Am I living my purpose, am I loving with all of my heart? Am I Happy everywhere I go? I love looking at little children they are so full of LOVE. Everything to them is an expression of excitement, even anger. They do every activity with every bit of energy they have.

Today, I ask myself, do I do the same? Do I live each moment with all the fullness that life has given me? This last weekend I had the pleasure of doing a play shop about Loving. I learned a great deal about myself, and how I live my life. I am reminded of a quote credited to Nelson Mandela which states,

"Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate, but that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, handsome, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to manifest the glory of God within us. It is not just in some; it is in everyone. And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

I know today that I have been given a style all my own. I need to live that, and embrace it each day I am alive. I was reminded this weekend that so many others are set free to be themselves when I live at full LIGHT!!! Sometimes I would not wear an outfit, or say something because I was afraid of how it might be perceived. Or perhaps someone would say something that would hurt my feelings. Don't take it personally, it is not about me at all. I am the light, showing others the way. Within each of us is the light of God call it what you will, just live it.

Remember the best gift you can give anyone is to be Happy. The rest is up to them.

I love you
Allen

I love you just the way you are!!!!!

Good Morning Family

What would I want you to know if I could only tell you one thing? Love is the answer to every question you have in life. How many time has it been the most important thing that you see my way, think like I think, or do it my way? Who cares how it gets done as long as you know that I love you and you love me? Who cares if the dishes get washed tonight, I would rather spend time talking with you, and loving you. One of the best questions I am learning to ask myself is, if this were the last thing I get to do with this person what do I want it to be? Was it more important that I wash the dished, or that I spent time loving you? I chose loving you.

Every second of our day we spend making choices, and we live in a world that is so driven by things, money, possession. So often I find that I want to possess people as well. Why do I say that? How many times in my life has it been the most important thing that I was RIGHT? What is that all about? Is there only one path to anything in life? Is there only one way to the supermarket, to the mall, to church, to a loving relationship with God? Am I so busy working on you, because I would rather do that than work on me?

There is within each of us a FEELING, a connection to God and Source that leads us. I know for me today when I am not connected to that, and I don’t make that the focus of my day-to-day life I get out of balance. When I am out of balance it usually when I need to be right about something in my life. I am learning today that I know the answers that are right for me. I just have to take the time to check in and ask myself. A really good indicator that I am off track is when I am in judgment of something you are doing.

How many times has being right kept me from the Love I knew I was supposed to give? How many times would I not talk to you because I was standing in RIGHTNESS about some issue, some injustice. Who was winning here? I have the answer it is within me. If I just take the time to find out. However you arrive at it is up to you. How ever long it takes you to find what you are looking for is up to you. I know today that when I am jealous of you, or something you have that is really has nothing to do with you. It has to do with my relationship with my self and my source. You are just holding up a mirror for me to see how I am treating myself.

When I get mad with you about something it is usually very small in the big scheme of life, however it doesn’t feel that way at the time. What I really need to do is sit down with my self and get it touch with what is going on with me? I find that there is usually somewhere I am not giving to myself what I need. It is just so much easier to put the blame elsewhere. History is an important thing I feel, cause when I look back at all those times I needed to be right, wish the dishes, a month later all I really remember is I missed the time to tell you that I love you. What if that was the last thing I got to share with you? Is that what I want you to remember me for? One of the best things I have learned in living is take the time to breathe. Just stop what I am doing and take a breath in and think about if this was the last thing I ever said to you, is this how I would want to be remembered?

Some of my friends ask me why are I always talking about Love? I usually say that is my purpose here. I want to be a peace with myself, and I know that I can have fun with you and laugh with you, but when it is all said and done I want you to always know that I love you more than anything. If I am love all the time, then I ask what else can come back to me? I spent most of my life living in judgment about what you were doing so just what come back to me? If I want love I need to be love. If I want peace I need to be peace.

I love you just the way you are. Find your way to love. Who cares what anyone things about how you look doing it. At the end of the day, you know that you have loved that day. I will ask you what is more important?

Thank you, for being you. I LOVE YOU just the way you are.

Always
Allen Mosley

Celebrate

Celebrate!!!

Each day I am given is a present from God. One of the many gifts that have come out of the last year is celebrate today. I am alive, I can LOVE,and I can see what I want to see. I woke up yesterday morning and I really have cause to think about just that. Celebrating life.

I was thinking about a request I had made in a prayer that I would be debt free. After talking to a very wise friend of mine she suggested that I choose different wording. Financial freedom was her suggestion, and I love it. Thank you Trev. I begin to think about what that means to me? As many of you may know I have been out on disability for over a year now, and I had worked very hard to clean up and clear up my credit. When I found out about the "Tant so" cancer I was very fearful to say the least. Not about the illness so much, but about how I was going to live and support myself.

I had years ago filed bankruptcy, and did not want to do that again. I had forgotten my prayer for financial freedom, or was choosing at the time to look at LIFE. I remember stopping at some point when I knew that I was going to have to move from CA and just surrendered. God I don't know what is going to come from all of this, but I do know it is for my GOOD!!!

I have to be honest I had put my focus on things,lifestyle,credit,status more than loving. I see today where I was blocking my good. I had worked hard to clean up my credit, and had done a great job. Yet I had some old hospital bills that were haunting me. I wanted to be free of that, yet how could I will all the bills I was paying in CA? I am reminded of a wonderful saying Rev. E has "God is always working behind my back for my good."

I realized yesterday morning that God through the course of this year had blessed me to clean up and clear up those old bills. This had been something I had wanted for over five years. I realized yesterday morning that I had NOT celebrated it. I realized that so many times in life that I ask for something and it is given. I forget to say thank you in the form of celebration. I am alive today. Celebrate!!!!!! I am financial free today. Celebrate!!!!!! I am clean, clear, and very much ready for the next blessing that comes my way. Celebrate!!!!!!

One of my favorite passages in the bible is Malachi 3:10 which ends in see if I will not open you the windows of heaven, and pour you out a blessing, that there shall not be room enough to receive it.

Each day I am alive is such a blessing, today I want to celebrate and say Thank you.

I love you
Allen