3/7/07
Hello Family;
Wow, at all the things that God is showing me right now in my life. As you all know my journey with cancer has been this great blessing in my life, for that is my CHOICE in how I see it. Last week Paul was here helping me with the Chemotherapy treatment, getting the packing started and helping me with the Jetta that I am ready and willing to let go of. ASKING for help, talk about a lesson from God. Opportunity for GROWTH is the word of the day. I want to take a moment and thank all of you, for loving me in this process. Asking Paul to come and help me was a real change for me, thank you for stepping up and being a light of love in my life. I love you Paul.
East Bay Choir and Church thank you for allowing me the space to grow and share. Letting you in and sharing the change for GOOD and GOD in my life has been, and is so amazing. This last week has been an emotional week as I get ready for my parents visit next week. Adding up all the bills I owe, knowing that God has a plan for me to pay them, and out of all of this is a blessing greater than I can believe. I am as Rev. E would put it "TRYING GOD AND SEE" Watch for updates as I continue my journey in FAITH.
This visit to NC is the first of many ways my faith gets the chance to show up. Finding out yesterday that the state disability will start on March 1. PRAISE GOD!!!! Time to spend with my parents and love them, and allow them to love and help me. Getting to know my Dad and feel his love for me is worth every drop of change that is happening right now.
Talk about relationship's if ever in my life I know that I share LOVE it is at this very moment. Ask me how I know. That which we give out comes back and YOU ALL are amazing. I see the God in each of you and yes, I see GOD in myself as well. NOW that is GROWTH!!!!
Next week is Chemotherapy # 4, test to make sure my heart is not being damaged by the chemotherapy, and pet scan to see how the lymph nodes look. I PRAISE GOD for all of that LOVE and the LOVE I feel from each of you. Thank you for I know today we are one, and we are the LOVE OF GOD.
Your Friend and Brother
Allen
3/17/07
Hello my family;
I wanted to write this morning and say I LOVE YOU ALL. It is so amazing watching God work. My parents arrived this last Wednesday, and I had Chemotherapy on Thursday. The doctor wanted to check my heart to make sure the chemotherapy was not damaging it in any way. As my friend Sharon would say it's time to get your praise on, so lift your hands up. NO DAMAGE at all. This next Wednesday I go for my pet scan. This is where they are looking for any growths in my lymph glands. I know that God has that worked out as well.
It is so wonderful having my folks here with me. The love of my family of Choice and my birth family has truly been the face, arms, legs, and grace of God for me through out this journey I am on. I have so many thank you to send out from Michael and Antonio for picking up my parents and making sure I get to the appointments on time this last week. For all of you that have been sending emails, phone messages, and Lori for coming for a visit from Redding. Thank you.
Asking for help, and then letting the help in has been an opportunity for growth in my life. I can say today with the grace of God that I am learning that lesson and asking for help. Thank you for all of those who keep pushing me to let you in to help. I was reading the science of mind lesson for the day today and this passage really touch my heart and I wanted to share it with you.
It states.
"I have discovered the most useful tools for managing on the edge are surrender, faith and love: Surrender into the unknown and infinite possibility, have faith knowing that something magnificent is unfolding for your highest good to be revealed, allow the experience of love from within and without to buoy you and lift you beyond recognition--you have everything you need within you. Living on the edge is a wonderful gift."
This passage remind me that each day I choose to live life to the fullest I am saying thank you to God for the GREATEST Gift, my life. When I live in the future or the past I am choosing to overlook the wonderful gift of today.
Thank you my family (My wonderful Gift from God)
I love you
Allen
I had to send this out it is great.
Love you
Allen
3/23/07
Hello my wonderful family;
I think all of you know I have been spending the last month packing up with the help of my parents and friends. I wanted to talk to you about all the wonderful things that have been showing up for me. When I moved from the East Coast in 98, I moved with a few dishes (you know how I love my calphlon), and my art work. One of the things I realized as I have watch the boxes filled is just how abundant I am. One of the things you learn in early recovery is to remember where you come from but, For the grace of God there go I.
When I first heard about the cancer my only thought was what to do next? I knew in my heart that God has and had this all worked out it was up to me just to watch it all come together. When I heard about my pay coming to and end, again I just knew that God had it all worked out. In the past when life happened I was so angry one of the things I was sharing with my Mom today is I asked God this last year to be Debt free. I am knowing that I am on that journey right now. The how is not up to me it is just for me to know that it is real.
The other day as I packed a box I realized how many times have I asked for an adventure in my life. Something fun, something exciting? Here I stand in the middle of it and I just want to say Thank you. Rather than being angry about it I want to say thank you, for the grace to move on. The sight to see GREAT things in this. Please hear me when I say there have been days I cried more that not. Inside of me is this strength that keep saying "I will lift up my eyes to the hills from which cometh my help." I stand here with the knowledge that God has opened the windows of heaven and is pouring me a blessing at this moment. Thank you God.
How exciting it is for me to know that my path is divinely guided. I am so very excited to see all of you next weekend at the love and blessing party. I am excited about my trip to NC to spend time with God and my friends there. I am excited to see where God places my feet next. I am excited to talk with anyone and everyone about the goodness I know of God. I am excited to be alive, something for so long I took for granted. Each breath I breathe is a gift from God and I thank God for the present.
My heart is full with love, joy and excitement today. Thank you all for allowing me to share this journey with each of you. I love you with all my heart.
Your brother and friend
Allen Mosley
3/24/07
Hello All
I just wanted to let you all know that my Dad and I sold the VW Jetta Yesterday. PRAISE GOD.
I am so happy that is behind me. I am on my way to Financial Freedom with the help of GOD.
Our God is Good all the time
Love you
Allen
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